My boyfriend and I got into it today because he thinks I have stupid posts on Facebook? Well, I finally broke down and blocked him among everyone he and I both know, to view or post on my wall. So, apparently out of the 240+ people in my network, only around 35 can view or post my information.
I just got tired of his complaining. I never posted anything that was embarrassing him and couldn't figure out what the hell his problem was about it. Our relationship has apparently hit a snag, so much as to the point where I am preparing myself to move out if necessary. I am saving up some money on the side, buying a car and keeping my eyes open for a good job with decent pay in the Manistee, Cadillac, and Petoskey area. Of course I love the dude, and he is trying. But his little habits of pushing my buttons just enough to set me off are getting irritating. I know I can push his buttons.
Gosh, I am going as far as splitting up all our items in the house, all they way down to the last fork! I am going to work on that all week beginning Wednesday!
Other than that, I am having trouble with weight. I went on a binge the last day or two after being sick. It is stress. I am a little relieved now, but I was hanging by a thread there for a day or two. It is my fault when it comes to my finances and I have no one to blame but myself for my actions I take financially, so I decided that next month after I catch up I will work on a tight budget. I will be very, very frugal.
As in frugal:
No purchases other than gas at convenient stores
No fast food or restaurants.
Limit my alcohol every week to a bottle or two of wine (I have been drinking a lot as well due to stress).
Focus on cooking everything at home.
Buy what I need at the grocery store and nothing more...as in nothing that is not on the list.
It is going to be very tough to do this. But I will try. I will focus on my writing more too, because I have been getting in the mood!
Well what can I say except that you know what you need to do, and all you can do is hope for the best, every relationship has its ups and downs, but in the end the two of you should have a goal and a plan together and be going after that plan and goal. If you two have nothing more than a living arrangement with make up sex, and stagnation then it is time for something to change. You moved in with him for one reason, are you still there for that same reason, if so make it work sit down tell him how you feel, tell him everything that bothers you and make sure he expresses his feeling on the other end also so you know where he is coming from. If he has trust issues, and it sounds like he does, maybe you should work towards making those issues go away. If you two can not communicate then what is the sense of being together, pack your stuff call your old boss at the hotel in Manistee get your job back and and learn an important lesson from it all. People will help you if you need help, you have friends and family for support use them, whether your pride wants you to or not. Shit happens, now you just have to see the mess is worth cleaning or throwing away.
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